THREE SISTERS


once we three were sisters
once we made our pact
living on our island
happy and content

if hell spewed its fury
it never broke our bond
if dark clouds threatened above
it only made us strong

with each turn of the tide
we climbed the wave and rode
be it good or bad
we kept each other afloat

now we've closed the distance
but our hearts are further apart
we may have quelled the past
but the present has stolen our path

i can't find my way forward
i know i can't go back
im stuck admist the raging waves
with nothing left to grab

i thought i heard a voice
it's calling me to shore
i thought i saw a helping hand
it reaches for me once more

it took a while to see the clear
to make sense of the whole
that voice i thought was heaven sent
was actually my own

i stood alone with bated breath
as my worst dreams unfold
i cried myself a river
and drowned myself twicefold

i hid away and played the game
so others wouldn't know
disguised the hurt and covered my eyes
so i wouldn't see it grow

i played it well
i made my rounds and even bought myself
a fairy tale where dreamers go
where i could be myself

i rolled the dice just one last time
to see if lady luck would hold
if i could keep the game at hand
i'd never have to fold

the dice spun off the board this time
i never saw its code
it must have been a lousy roll
i lost two turns at a go

a huge boat of troubles
i have since brought back with me
with one hand and covered eyes
i steered it into a dream

i knew the boat was going to crash
yet i knew i shouldn't flee
a captain never abandons his ship
even at the deepest seas

i dreamed a dream of time gone by
where we sisters formed three
where laughter was our only cry
with words of love between

although i know this boat will crash
i still hold on with my good hand
i guess there's only one question left
will you hold on with me?


// ever felt a sense of nothingness? that is exactly what im feeling.. in hopes tt nothing is what i hope the both of you would be to me.

oh myyyyyyyy! at shumzies hse now.. waiting for my hair to dye itself while she washes off her alr dyed hair. ahahha!! hopefully our streaks turn out goodddddd! if not .. hmm. ahah we can just bury ourselves in a hole and die alr. ahahha :/ last night was funnnnnn!!!!! went to yaski's bdae party at sunrise gardens.. really nice place!! food was good... (shumz n i stole the whole box of fried chicken flakes ting.. hee) and ate alot! i dint get to touch the cake tho :/ poor yaski was just being tortured the whole time.. all thks to mostly the ndu guys. ahhaha.. ey were tryin to force him to ram agst a pole... threw him inta pool.. hammie n kim ey all even made a nice mixture inta helmet outta all the food and sauces ey cld find. really gross. ahhahaa.. inta end most of it went to the floor.. so of course ey all ended up pushing yaski to the floor too to try to get the stuff on him anw. lol. aft that a whole buncha us went thomson prata aka the prata house a few stops down fr my hse to makannnnn! it was super yummish.. and shumz n i were totally embarrassed cz we were the only 2 to really bother to dress up as dead school girls (1 st nicks and 1 AC) damn paiseh la.. so with our fake blood flowing down from our lips and white ghostly faces and UH UH school uni.. we made our way very embarrassedly to the table ata prata hse. hahaha. it was really a whole big group! me shumz der liao hammie ben andy cong tim nolan.. yaski joined us later. making a hell lota noise and ate hell alot too! hahaha poor liao had to help me eat most of the food tt i ordered.. altho he complained alot i bet he was damn happy!!! he realy ate qt alot!! uh uh ah. anw aft tht shumz was super gian to drink and i just dint wna go home.. so me shumz liao tim yayi happily made our rounds in liao's car to find drinks and find a place to drink!!! aft much driving ard aimlessly and in dismay since like pratically everywhere was closed..inta end we went back to tim's place to get drinks and stuff and headed down to yishun peer/park to drink. it was really fun! ahhaha.. played alota stupid games and shumz n i were losing non stop! uh uh ah! kept drinking la.. damn bad w numbers and all the games tim intro-d to us. hahaa.. we shda just drank evtg right fr the start alr. hahah.. aft tt we headed down back to tim's place to hang out and play ps! ahahah DAMN FUN! ALL THE FIGHTING GAMES.. tim was obviously gd in it since he owns the damn game.. ahah shumz was superbly violent killllllllllllllll KILLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!! I'M a MAAAAAAAAANIAAAAAAAAAC maaaaaaniaaaaaaaaaaaac on the FLOOOOOOOOOOORRRR!!! and you've neveeeeeeeeeeeeeerrr seeeen me acccccccccccct like this BEFOOOOREEEEEE!!! okayyyy shumz just took control of the comp and started typing rubbish... rubbish which only 2 of us appreciate but still rubbish anw. whahahaha.

had another drinking session with tim ben shumz liang jer nolan yy ytd (mon night) it was damnnnnnnnnn funnnnyyyyy!!!!! nolan was talking rubbish all the while ...... seriously rubbish.. much worse than yayi.. and totally random.. jerome was gone all the time wayyyyy b4 the drinkin session cz he and shumz were drinkin in my room b4 tt while playing speed..... (shumz says 'speed' really really really funnily btw....!!! ) hahahahhaa.. jer was as red as a lobster all over la.. and he was qt gone at the end of e session... tim was anal and qt sober... lost a toe nail tho.... ouchhh.. ben was crazy la... got super high ... excited and positively happy. ahahha! it was hilarious! he actually even pulled out wei liangs leg hair.... which was really gross....! ahhaha.. loved all the games we played! damn fun laaaaaaa!!!!!!! we drank till morn and inta end left me jer shumz tim in tims room. jer slept thruout n woke up only when shumz started to squirt contact solution at him. ahhahaa.. i slept on off on off ever since yayi refused to let me cont playing! hahaha.. which is the reason why i'd thought i'd take a rest and thus fall aslp.. ahhaha. shumz n tim were watching family guy and south park and wat not. ahahhahaa. aft tt jer went back to his room to die thus leaving the 3 of us. hahaha. we were spse to eat macs breakfast but shumz n i fell aslp. uh uh ! hahaaaaa. aft tt shumzie and i went holland v to eat yummyyyy crystal jadeeeeee! ahhahaa we wanted to eat evtg onta menu laaaaa...... esp shumzz! ahhahaha. super funny. yummmmisssshhhh!! aft tt was grocery shopping at cold storage... we took like an hr to shop cz we cldnt stop oohing and aahhing at every food item onta shelf... ahahha!!!!!! aft tt non stop family guy. we alr watched the whole of season 1. we just finished the 1disc of season 3. rocks la. we're mad... seriously

tav's bdae drinking party later.... ill now.. but im still gian to drink. we'll see how it goes..
damn tired... tired of everything.

just came back to my room from talking to ping. 4 whole hours we talked!! =) i really love this girl and our conversations.. no matter how serious or hilarious ey may get. feels really gd to just sit down in our own lil corner and talk like we've got all the time inta world and all the world to ourselves. i felt much better aft the talk even tho both our probs weren't solved. haha. we were tallking abt like hall life.. the pros n cons of it.. abt how all these expectations build up.. and how u feel u got to act up to them..abt cliques..how and why they form and the 'consequences' of em.. abt how sometimes u just want to eat with 1 person and not e whole clique..or how sometimes u just want to steer away sometimes.. how some friends are really situational friends..you're only close to them at one point of time in your life.. but at least they were a part of it and that perhaps they were there at that time for a reason. lol. we were talking abt how its really hard to make really gd frens in hall.. and how hall life is transient n u gta look back to ur jc n sec life to seek out ur true frens etc.. we were also wondering.. that all of us got so many sides to us.. to diff grps of pple n all n whether all our sides are in fact a reflection of our true selves? n if we are being fake? why is it so... and all these kinda things hahaha. well i tink the different sides of us arent fake.. just tt when u hang out with diff grps.. well cz grps come tgt cz of certain similarities.. so when we're with tt particular grp of pple we just tend to show more of tt side of us.. if that even makes sense at all.


i dntknw. i tink ping and i.. we're just living in our own lil world sometimes..its like.. we're traditional girls living in a modern world (this one is really hard to explain.. its more like the values n stuff)..we love to just sit back.... talk....look at the stars..
always dreaming of escaping to an island where there's the sun sand and sea. just imagine yourself on an island with your best buds.. basking in the suns warmth.. cooling yourself down with an ice cold drink.. hearing the rise and falls of the waves.. hear seagulls chirping in the distance.. just lying down.. with not a care in the world but for that very moment.. a moment of peace and tranquility.. a moment you have all to yourself.. where you and your best bud(s) simply lay back and enjoy nature and all its beauty as time crawls by.. where there is no need to talk and an air of comfortable silence just takes over. yes. this is the kind of life we dream about. sometimes i feel we're like two people stuck in the world of disney. where everything is a fantasy.. where everything and everyone is happy. we usually prefer the old to the new.. we love to stone and reminisce abt the good ol times and how things used to be.. we enjoy old movies tgt.. enjoy the simplicity of life.. forever lazing ard inta pool and talking rubbish..staying over at each other's hse's not do anything spectacular but simply enjoy each others company..or perhaps stone in silence tgt..watch brainless things tgt.. with topics ranging from small things.. to larger things... stupid to philosophical... abt past present n future...from lil things tt affect us.. or just any random thought. like i said.. its really hard to explain. but the bottom line is .. we're in our own lil world. i dont know why we alws end up talking like tt somehow..with alota crap and stupid things in btw. like just now in her room.. we were 'playing' softball with a marker and this small plastic ting(u know the small egg like capsule thing tt usually contains a toy inside which u have to slot a coin inta machine to turn out?).. ahha.. the marker being the bat and the plastic ting being the ball. ahhaha. madness. many other stupid and crazy examples i can provide you with.. but lets not put our reputation at stake or in jeopardy here. (:


sometimes its good to just sit down and talk with a friend..not just cz u wna bond with her or him or u feel obliged to cz u havent done so in a really long while.. but bcz u really wna talk to that person and u really wna knw wats happening in his or her life. i feel sometimes you dont have to meet in quantity..sometimes its better to just stick to smaller numbers..i mean tgt is more fun of course.. but sometimes im so sick n tired of all the nonsense..and life is like becoming so monotonous that i just feel like moving back home. well.. i always believe in my motto.half of which i came up with.. the other a gd fren of mine.. chris.. alws tells me.. that ''everything happens for a reason... and everything happens for the best'' eventually it'll all work out.

10am now.. and im still not asleep. ROCKS. anyways.. to my dear DU PI .. happy birthday dearrrrrrr!! sorry i cant be there to celebrate your bdae with you once again! nonetheless.. you've always been my best friend and best cousin. we've known each other for 20 yrs now.. and despite the distance set btw us.. we still manage to remain as close as ever. i really believe that true friendship is hard to find.. and you are someone i believe will stand by me forever.. who's friendship will definitely withstand the test of time (and distance). cant wait for you to get back to spore (: i miss you.

whats going on?
so many thoughts running thru my mind of late.
chow cinth n i each have plenty of things to think about recently.
chow has Ca and Fb to think abt.
cinth has Bb and Db.
i have Ad and Kc (mainly) and Jb and Sb (on the side).
i think we're all going to become ms emo's soon.
all the letters are either awkward.. caught in limbo or just sad.
cinth dear im glad u feel better.. u and Bb are doin fine..
chow heads up man.. ull nv knw when the ball will fly in ur part of the field.
tong tong ... dont worry too much. u n her will be fine =)
me.. cont ignoring Ad and focus more on Kc, Jb and Sb.

LETS JUST FOCUS ON OUR STUDIES SHALL WE?!?!
STUDY SESSIONS BABES!! WE CAN DO IT! =)

i hate how you make me think.
i hate how you make me confused.
i hate how you act so weird.
i hate how we went wrong.
i just want us to be normal good friends.
so what the fuck are you trying to pull.
stop using her to get to me its not working.
stop using others to get to me im not stupid.
you know whats the worst of it?
i hate myself..
cz i cant bring myself to hate you.
:/

yayyyyyyy!!! there's the new watch i bought above! its reallllllly pretty and i love ittttttt! (: ping n i nearly DIED tryin to decide btw the red and the turquoise! lol. inta end i took the red and she took the turquoise!! BRILLIANT! (: both of us were really really happpppppy! and we cldnt stop looking inta mirror or at each other's watch to admire our extravagently wonderful most recent purchase! (: (ping we dont spend alot when we're tgt.. really we dont!! haha) anw.. in addition to the new watch i got... (which is actually different as compared to the older version that jacinth has.. this one is adidas candy dntknw what.. ahha) i got new specs tooooooo! really exciting! browsed ard EYE PLAY at heeren for the longest time w ping n finally decided onta red n orange frame (: REALLY EXCITING! ill be wearing my specs really often for sure! (: not exactly wat i had in mind initially ( i wanted sth likee aya and jasmine's specs.. which has intricate designs n were 3 toned i tink..) but nvm!! im really satisfied wita one i bought. its outstanding but not overbearingly so.. simple.. relatively pricey but acceptable.. definitely funky and the orange n red combi is so cheery that it brightens up my whole day! (: YAYYYY! been spending alot alot alot recently.. the watch.. the specs.. shoes.. tons n tons of food.. just the above few along chalks up to abt $500 alr la. hahaha.. all those who OWE MONEY PAY MONEYYYYYYYYY!!! no la. jk. alright gta do my dnd finance log sheet now.. did the tutorial balloting just now n i got a splitting headache! hopefully this next chore wont traumatize me as well. taaaaaaa

sheares hall supper anyone? (:

OMGGGGGGG YUYINGGGGGG I REALLLLLLYYYYYYYY REALLLLLLLLLLYYYYYYYYY REALLLLLLLLLLYYYYY MISS U SO MUCH! its been soooooo long since you've gone to switz and the sinking feeling is finally hitting me.. hai. that day when u left the airport i was sad but numb.. now im completely devastated! i miss all the days we used to spend at my hse. ure hse.. in town.. badm.. anywhere.. everywhere! omg.. its really upsetting.. you're one of e few best frens i really really really treasure and have.. and completely and absolutely trust. our friendship was nv superficial and you are really a fren that i believe can be one of my life long frens and i really miss u alot :( oh man. i feel as tho i have a sinking feeling all the way down to my feet. its almost the same sensation i felt when my sis and jean left. utter devastation and extreme sadness. damn it. anw im sorry i have not been replying ur email but the stupid hotmail is down.. and i tink u shd just email my gmail acct.. which is jiamyammy@gmail.com. i will definitely call u soon! emailing is efficient but its definitely not the same. my only hope is that hall life will keep me as busy as i currently am so that i wont spend so much time missing all my gd n best frens overseas n feeling oh so miserable.. (not saying that i wna forget u guys!). hai. i miss u 3.. and u guys know who u are! my 3 best friends inta world. hmm anw.. i cant seem to make up my mind abt the stupid tutorial ranking.. all of the slots seem so impt la! and coordinating with pple all over is just plain giving me a headache. i've been so wrapped up in hall life once again tt i seem to forget the pple outside hall that are so impt to me. im so sorry u guys.. i will meet up with u all soon! (: i really wonder if i shd drop nm2208 visiual comm. but its too late and i shall stick it out.. it really better not be my downfall this sem cz i need to pull up my cap score desperately!. somehow i feel much more mature n insightful this sem even tho i may not act like it. but im def toning down and thinking more astutely now. some things u dont think. you know it. rumours rumours rumours.. so many of em flying ard ata moment. which of em is actually true? the whole thing is just so retarded. aft what chow just told me.. everything seems like a facade. sometimes ur eyes play tricks on you or the waters run so deep you dont even realise you're sinking. oh well. im still oh so glad i got all my fav pple ard me in b3 and a few other favs in th altho ure far away.. (yes ping .. you're inc of course.. one of my best frens la! (: ) made many many many new frens of late.. n the numbers just keep rising. no im not tryin to imply that im popular or sth.. its a most natural ting tht u make tons of new frens during or aft orientation.. but how many of these frens actually become ur gd frens or how many do you really keep in contact with aft awhile? we'll see. so far this sem is looking fine.. well.. cinth n chow.. we've been thru shit before.. if this sem doesnt look up.. we can do it again! we've got each other to tide thru whatever may come and thats all that matters (:

i miss my sis.
i miss my best friends overseas.
i miss char cheri ser.
i miss my sn babes.
i miss kangs n yunx.
i miss my arts n union camp og.
i miss you.
:(

OMG.. thoc is finally nearing to an end. i thought this day wld nv arrive! ahhaa.. i mean the whole orientation was fun! thks to my wonderful rasmus councillors n freshies.. but i really really miss home... miss the rest of the world.. miss my bed.. the aircon.. miss having free time.. miss being able to sleep as long as i want and be as free as i want to be. aaaaaahhhhhhhhhh. well aft rag hopefully i wont be too caught up in all the sch work n DND tht i miss out on all the above again. brief moments of unhappiness .. of elation.. of anger all coming to an end. much to say abt this yrs thoc but too lazy. overall i thought our og was great. initially i thought our grp wld be qt sian.. cz only me ty and yaozhi wld be enthu.. but somehow it turned out great! we may not be the loudest og.. but we sure bonded in more ways than one =) we all had our disagreements fr time to time.. sure .. most of our conversations were all crap.. but it is crap tt brings pple tgt inta first place. =) im glad i made a number of new frens.. got qt close to a handful in fact (: one thing i dont qt get tho.. is why my reputation is alws.. piggish and bimbotikyy... OH MY LA. anw im damn damn damn prouda my room B304! its super cosy! tons of pple praised it alr.. ahaha.. got a lovely fridge... sponge mats.. high quality fan.. air purifier.. quilted bed..curtains.. a never ending storage of food.. simply heaven. cant blif rag day is drawing near.. which means school is starting too.. ugh. i hate bidding! simply gets on my nerves.. i can nv decide wat modules to take outside the core and i am always damn suey. oh well... i love my B3 short wing! got all my fav pple living ard me.. its gna be a lovely sem ahead.. i can feel it! i mean .. im even INSECT FREE! yes.. u heard it right.. i have not tio a single insect in my room so far.. HOW ABOUT THAT FOR A GREAT START!! (: wont rarah be surprised. wonder wat the next few days wld bring.. I MISS YOU! :/

hmm.. time really really flies! yy's leaving tmr. and im gonna be so damn upset. i cried like shit when my best fren n sis left.. i tink hers will be no exception :( dreading tmr. i better go write her a nice long letter and wrap up her gift! hai. still cant blif all my bestest frens are leaving me for the world of the overseas.. :/ oh well.. at least ill be caught up with pre-camps, camps and tons of DND work to be that greatly affected. if that is at all a consolation. i cant blif the th camp will last 3 whole wks! OMG. tts madness! ey better let me off onta wkends if not ill just DIE! went to damn alota trouble tryin to find retro stuff for the councillors dance item.. omg.. all the trouble for a few min of performing time. WTH! haha.. oh well. i tink im on camp high! first it was arts pre camp.. arts camp.. union pre camp.. union camp.. now th pre camp.. den th camp! OMG! i have no idea wats up with myself man. i still cant blif i gave up a free movie pass to pirates for a cheesepie outg! i mean! omg! i clda just met up with em aft dinner. hai. but okay la.. dinner was fun so i guess it made it worth it? -.- i miss rumbo.. havent seen em all in ages!! but nvm our outg is coming soon with my nubi's bdae chalet! cant wait! great food great company!! its going to be fab (: i think its funny how aft one violent confrontation with someone.. everything can be so peaceful the very next day.. suddenly everything is cleared up even if everything ended on an awfully sour note. =) well.. everything happens for the best i guess? i've come to realise sth of late.. my guy preference is starting to sway fr those tt are inwardly BASTARD/JERKS to those tt are outwardly/inwardly GUAI. how odd is that. totally opposites i must say! maybe cz i've learned my lessons aft associating myself with all the bastards and jerks i was most unfortunate to come across. oh well. the holidays passed so fast (i actually dont tink i can consider it a holiday since i din go on one and since i was slogging most of it away) school is starting soon! i dont know why im suddenly damn excited to move back to hall back to my same old lousy room (: its so stupid really. last yr just a wk before i had to vacate my room for the hols i was thinking to myself.. i pity the person who is going to live in my room next sem or during the hols.. cz the fan was spoilt (it squeaked like an army of bats!! ask anyone fr blk B or even blk C.. ey all heard n complained.. it was freakily amusing) .. i got some funny hornets nest on the window which i din dare to clear.. my room was full of dirt and in a horrible state.. one of window pane sections was spoilt (i dntknw why it just cant close properly).. well what do u knw.. im going to live in that same room for the coming yr! haha.. how 'suey' la.. hopefully itll be a blessing in disguise! so when i got back to my room a few days ago to clean up. i had to report a spoilt fan.. spoilt windows.. spoilt blinds.. dying transponder.. den later a missing chair. WTF! well.. at least i had a new fan so i din have to clean it (: i tink tts e only gd ting tt happened tt day :/ anw im damn excited to stay cz my room is so clean neat and tidy ata moment.. i got my dearies surrounding me.. i got a powerful table fan (very vital cz it gets friggin hot all the bloody time) .. im gna mosquito net my windows so ill avoid the insect season of sem 1 (last yr i tio 8 beetles in 2hrs .. now that was really bad).. im prob getg a fridge (self explanatory :D ).. i bought spongey floor mat tingys!! love em! my bed is much softer now (thks to my 'comforter' which is actually my quilt tt i stuffed under the bed sheet..! n of cz my usual ton of yummylicious food that nv fails to take up at least half the cupboard space! (: haha things are definitely looking up! hur hur. altho i can predict everyone coming to my room to borrow, use n eat away all my stuff as usual.. haha. i dntknw why but my room was alws a room for mass gatherings.. which may not be a gd ting. hahaa.. hmm.. chow n i are suppose to get kittens! haha.. but i highly doubt we will.. esp since mich will totally kill us. haha.. oh well. i think there are seasons for family KNITtings.. one period ure close to ya family members.. the next min ure not.. now is one of e periods tt im not. which is qt sad really.. cz tings obviously wont get better since im gna spend the next 3 wks in hall of the thoc and aft tt itll be hall hall hall stay for the sem. :( i miss home already even tho im sitting right next to my parents typing away. hai. hmm.. wonder what the next few wks will bring..

SHIPPING : MISS U LARH! GLAD WE SUDD RE-BONDED THE PAST FEW WKS! we must uphold our hall outgs. before going home lunch outgs and all k? (: feel free to drop by anytime.. B304.. still the same ol place =) loved our shopping outg! cant wait for more! -grins-

CHERI CHAR HS : totally enjoyed our stay over night! too bad it cldnt last longer.. even tho our outgs are few and far in btw but its quality not quantity tt really matters (:

YY : omg.. wat can i say :( i will really really really miss you. one of my truest bluest frens ill ever have.

chow n jacinth : IKEA IKEAAAA!!! MEATBALLS CHICKEN WINGS GALOREEEEEE!!! (:

RUMBO : i really really really miss u guys!! cant wait for wed!

CHEESEPIE : LETS GO KTV!!! (:

YUNX : still v happy for u. update me k! (:

* this whole entry is going to be rather graphic and rather gross. i would advise those with weak hearts not to read it :/

oh my god. this morning was definitely the worst morning of my life. i really thought i was going to die. after watching the soccer finals n packing my bag for union camp DAY 0 the next morn, i set off to slp at 6am. however for the next two hrs i spent the time retching and diarrhoeaing inta toilet. it was the most disgusting and pathetic sight ever. when my stomach pains first occured i thought it was mere hunger pangs, and i stupidly went to drink a cup of milk ( i say stupid cz later on jensen told me that one shd nv ever ever ever drink milk when one is having diarrhoea.. well how the bloody hell was i suppose to knw!! ) well.. the milk didnt stay in my tummy long.. i puked it out less than 10 min later :/ went to the toilet.. sat on the seat.. just in case i was having a tummy ache. no sooner.. my whole body was covered with cold sweat and i started shivering and feeling breathless. my energy was completey drained out as the stomach pains got worse and worse.. i was pretty sure i was going to black out anytime soon. as i thought i was going to die and things couldnt possibly get any worse, i felt that i was about to vomit. i looked around for a pail nearby that i could grasp for but of cz.. i saw none. i decided not to risk leaving the toilet seat and instead happily vomitted all over my left foot and the toilet floor 4 times consecutively! it was the sickest thing ever. i had the worst diarrhoea ever!! and seriously no matter how sick this might sound.. i cldnt blif how much i managed to puke and shit out. (i actually lost 1.5kg after tt) it was amazing. meanwhile my stomach pains were sooooo bad i knew i had to hurry rid myself of whatever poisoned food there was in my tummy before i die. despite me nearly blacking out countless times, i forced myself to hang on and prayed to god many many many times to let this pass (its been a really really really long time since i last prayed) After god knows how long, after the pain was more bearable, i used up all my remaining energy to flush, wash my hands (i had no energy left to clean my foot that was covered in vomit) open the toilet door and collasped on the floor outside crying out for my mom and basically just screaming for help. It took pretty long to get them to help considering i couldnt scream very loudly and they were really tired and were happily sleeping. After i heard some sort of response and my mom's footsteps drawing near i blacked out (one funny thing was tht while i was down on the floor my dog was standing over me sniffing me and just walking to and fro around my head).After awhile i came to and heard my moms panicked voice..' OH MY GOD. DID U FALL DOWN AND HURT YOURSELF?!?!' i just squirmed and cried on the floor and pointed to my tummy. (i guess she saw the vomit in the toilet and figured out what was happening). soon my dad mom and maid were lifting me off to my room to lay me on the bed (what was really disgusting was my left foot was still covered in vomit and i refused to let it touch the ground or my bed). After alot more crying as a result of the ever so painful but thankfully subsiding stomach pains i finally fell asleep out of exhaustion about an hour later. although i was inta grossest state ever (imagine vomit-covered-foot, clammy and cold-sweated body, actually i think having just vomit is gross enough) i felt so relieved and so grateful that i was no longer completey drained of energy, no longer having difficulty breathing, no longer experiencing constant and acute stomach pains, no longer retching, no longer crying, no longer blacking out but in fact experiencing and indulging in the simplicity and tranquility of that moment in time where i felt nothing but peace and quiet. i was in limbo.. and i was caught btw a moment in time. where i was at that moment n wat i felt could not be anything or feel any less than a little piece of heaven. even tho i prob only managed to sleep at 8+ am.. with only less than 3 hrs of slp i actually got out of bed and went for union camp day 0! i cldnt blif it.. mich cldnt blif it.. well i guess noone will blif it. i dont know why i did it.. but i guess after feeling so completely helpless, powerless and weak at the hands of my stupid yet ever severe food poisoning i wanted to prove to myself that it would not stop me from carrying on my day and that i would be a responsible councillor and make it down there to help my og and make the camp a success! -.- i also did not want any fingers to be pointing at me (long story). unfortunately for the rest of the day i had food phobia (which is totally unlike me btw.. ask anyone!!) and didnt eat till the later part of the day when i cldnt tahan alr. hai. simply the worst morning of my life. hopefully after this horrid incident things would look up and ill have many many good times to come? :( alright union camp day 1 starts tmr. i better go slp and rest my frail tired n broken body! lol.

kc : i really really really really miss you and my sis ALOT! what would i do wout the two of you i really cannot imagine :/

wowwwwww! okay yes i knw its been a damn damn damn long time since ive updated my blog. lol. to all those who've been complaining im so sorrrrrrrry!! but ive seriously been busygirl86 man. had DND.. DND ... n more DND meetings.. arts pre camp.. RAMICA chalet for councillors.. arts camp.. union pre camp.. and now union camp to come in just 1 day! (: IM DAMN EXCITED BUT SUPER SUPER DREADING IT AS WELL.. cz i knw its gna be fucking tiring. aye. haha. but anw im really really looking forward to it cz my dearest kangs will be there! i havent seen her in such a long time n e last camp we went tgt was like sec sch badm trg camp la! =) too bad yy cldnt mk it. if not it wld be just perfect :/ hai. i still cant blif you're leaving for switz. all my best friends are overseas or going overseas... WTH! :( ill really really really really miss u ALOTTTTTTTT! hai. recently besides DND and preps for union.. been having RUMBO OUTINGS! my gosh! absolutely loved every single one of em! haha. we've had 3 so far inta wk aft arts camp which is a pretty gd record! (of cz incomparable to the ingo daily outgs we had last yr lol) First outg was KBOX at cine on a bloody sunday! ahha. omg.. forked out like almost $24 just for 5 hrs of singing! -faints- oh well. it was really really fun! will nv forget the CHINESE KUNG FU SONGS.. AND ALL THE OLDIES.. CALCUTTAS.. WHEN A MAN LOVES A WOMAN (my nubi's absolute fav for which we all threw peanuts at him LOL) den swensons supper aft.. and the 2nd RUMBO OUTING the next day with ritchell wilson n alex at my hse den supper at long hse n prata (: gd times man.. altho ritchell n i were quite disgusted with the gayism shown by wilson n alex. lol. for instance.. wilson who constantly layed his head on alex's shoulder and thighs at every opportunity! PENGS. we shda taken pics ritch..!! haha.. absolutely hilarious! just had our 3rd RUMBO outg ytd! (: this time it was dinner at fish n co den supposedly MAHJONG at alexius's super super duper duper colossal hse!! ahha. inta end we ended up talking cock and playing risk! HAHA. (i still cant blif we din play arcade or chinese drums and most importantly MAHJONG!) poor ritchell lugged her mahjong set ard for nth and i spent long hrs searching for the mahjong paper for nth :/ ahhaa. oh well risk was really fun! ahhaah the first game.. i was losing sooooooooo badly tt even if i sudd removed my troops fr the board.. im sure none of em wld notice. lol. YES IT WAS THAT BAD! ahha. the 2nd game i got much better tho (: but my silly nubi fell aslp halfway n we decided to stop the game. ahha. i mean it was alr 5.30 am. ahah! i think wat was funny was all the alliances.. me and beng.. me n ritch.. me n nu bi.. beng n ritch.. ritch n nu bi.. ahahah.. all FRIENDLYYYYYYY FRIENDLYYYYYYYY! (: our name game was qt funny too! altho we nv got to the action or vulgarities stage! lol. bengs LPPL.. my FUCKED.. chows CCB.. an nings YAO SIEW? or however u spell it ahhaha =) gd ol days during ramica chalet man. anw last night was really fun! and inexpensive... minus the fish n co of which I DIDNT ORDER ANYTHING BTW!! haha.. too broke n not tt hungry either.. very grateful to all my donators who donated n offered bits of food here n there for me tho =) yummyyyyyyy!! next wk gna be packed full with union camp! so the next rumbo outg wld hfta be after camp! unless u guys organize one yourselves without chow jacinth huishi ulric junlei n i :/ aahha! alright till then!! =)

*to all my dears whom i love soooo much and hfnt met in ages!! u knw wat to do (:
*NUBI'S bdae chalet 26-28 stayover n bbq!! RUMBO LETS GOOOOOOO!!!! SAY SAY SAY!

OMG OMG OMG. ive been sooooooooooo busy lately i've completely lost track of time. and no i have not been busy at any jobs fr the lobangs i receieved.. ive been busy doing DND work.. DND = Dinner and Dance comm.. for temasek hall alias is DO NOT DISTURB (which i THOUGHT OF ... DAMN PROUD LA!) .. the alias fits our theme HORROR(which jacinth PROUDLY thought of :D ). as well as our name DND! ahha yayyyy!! so glad we can finally use horror laaaaa. all of us were soooooooo excited over it.. unlike CARNIVAL. we alr brainstormed and more or less took it tt horror was gna be the theme even tho the RFs have yet to approve it. lol. i've nv been so hardworking for a non-sports comm before in my life. ahha ask chow jacinth and mich. eyll tell u. ahah. actually i also dntknw wat brought abt this sudden change in me. truthfully.. if last time in school there are any projects or little bits of homework that i like/love/enjoy or know i can do well.. i will put my whole heart into it. ahahaa. i guess maybe thats kinda the same for DND ba.. initially i was kinda forced to join cz of the points.. and i thought of it as sth i HAD to do and not WANT to do.. but now.. the comm members are alright(jacinth chow paul james justin tav shumin and me..8 pple only since jerry just quit.. but still despite our small no. i believe we can make it! anyone who wanna join is welcomed tho -grins- ) meetings have been gd except for the waiting for pple to come part.. and all the DND events look very very promising!! especially the games part along with our wonderful theme. so maybe cz i tink this can be a success thats why im working my butt off for this. i mean come on. i actually did additional homework (games proposal) voluntarily just because i was damn excited about the games!! -.- isnt that retarded. hahaa.. anw ARTS CAMP IS GOING TO BE THE BOMB! ahhaa.. my house RAMICA is great.. the pre camp was fun.. the CAMP WILL BE GREAT! plus! because of our enthusiasm!! our house councillors are going to hold a chalet from the 20-22 june at pasir ris too! woah! how fun will that be! im so glad i got jacinth baby with me (: after arts there's UNION CAMP! wowwwwwww! that will REALLY REALLY REALLY BE THE BOMB!! ahhaaaa.. the funnest retardedest best camp ive ever been to! things are sure looking up! esp if we really have our DND holiday at phuket!!! SUN SAND SEA GALOREEEEEEE! haha cant wait!!

ps : despite how busy i sound.. feel free to ask me out! esp those lost sheeps out there who are even busier than i am!! like ms SHIPPING!(no pun intended btw SHEEP, SHIPPING and SHIPING of course... YEAH RIGHT! LOL ) ahha. miss all my bimbs and lovelies.. u knw who u are (:

just came back fr prata with hao mei.. ate so bloodyyy much!! ahhaa.. one cheese one egg onion one honey paper and 2 teh pengs!!! -faints- haha haomei ate n drank lesser than me laa. ahhaha! he was even shocked tt i was extremely elated abt the whip cream on top of the honey paper.. ahha he said.. 'i thought girls usually abstain fr whip cream cz its fattening' (smwhre along those lines la) and i said.. 'but u knw me right..' AHHAHA. n yes of cz he does! just the day before.. he yy and i caught SHE'S THE MAN which is actually a really funny show..!! before tt while waiting for him i had a 6inch cold cut trio (which is really not alot in my opinion even tho he says it is).. den aft we bought tics we ate mos.. a full meal each.. den movie.. den aft movie i went to meet my darling B3 babes for dinner at crystal jade.. OMG! i was intending to sort of work it out (it = fats) tmr cz i was spse to meet ever-late-waker .. alws-arrive-late chow.. i nagged her the night b4 to slp earlier so she can wake up on time etc etc.. ah well.. she was spse to arrive at 12.. and she set her alarm at 12 (i knew she wld) den when i called her at 1.30.. my call just woked her up. i was sooooooooooooo disappointed. so we din haf our session aft all. cz she gta leave early to meet her darlingggggggggg. hai. inta end it turned out to be an absolutely perfect day to swim and tan!! the sun was sorching all da way till 6!! bloody hell. yes hao mei aka zhi hao (who happens to attract certain vouchers) can VOUCH for that since he happily went swimming w lil kids. ahha!! (hope ya noticed my lame attempt at being funny abt puns..) anw i dntknw why.. everyone ard me is gg on a diet.. cutting down on their food.. hardly eatg at all.. and the lil tt they eat are all wrong for em.. being so paranoid abt their weight how ey look and tinkg they're fat all da time.. wats with this diet phase?!!? am i alone in tis world for being happy with myself!? hmm.. yes i knw all of ya knw that i really appreciate food. ahha my hall mates my old frens and new can all vouch for that.. haha. i just cant bring myself to understand why you guys wanna hurt ya body.. why dont u go exercise instead?? trust me itll be more beneficial inta long run!! (: i can offer to do some sports wya guys! lol.. notice key word = SOME. haha. anw jacinth babyyyy!! lets make our hol plans more concrete! ahhaah we dont even have a destination or time frame or sth yet!! lol. oh yeah. hao mei n i had an interesting conv at dinner too. he said tt kc girls = bitchy.. ijtp = high class ah lians.. sjc = low class ah lians.. st nicks = the best .. spontaneous (i still dont undstd exactly why) .. fun.. dont ever put on airs (those tt he knw) n frenly. i was BEAMING WITH PRIDE DEEP DOWN. ahhaha!! do u all think wat he said is true? ahaha i think its extremely easy to distinguish IJ girls fr the rest.. but really really really hard to differentiate btw the schools.. ahha. anw for arts pre camp.. we gta meet ata central forum at 8 blooodyy am!! omg. im soooooooooooooooooo gna die for that... i think even aft haomei gives me my wake up call.. ill drop back to bed and snooze away. ahah! i mean my body clock is as usual and once again screwed upppppppp!! ive been slpg ard 6am laaaaaa.. dead. well well.. CHERI CHAR SER I MISS U ALOT ALOT ALOTTTTTT!! whens our next meet up?? and MISS HUANG SHIPPING! (hurhur) ahha when on earth rya freee to meet up!! TWIT. ahha. i shall resume my engrossment in my wonderful nora roberts triology now (: taaaaaaaaaa

omg omg omg!!!! im sooooooooooooooooo excited for our trip jacinth!!!! ahha (: anyone interested to join us holidayingg??? (: i feel so cooped up here in spore tt i just cannot wait to get awayyyyyyyyy! ahhahah. gna be really really busy next wk onwards.. with the starting of the camps (Arts n union) and DnD meetings (3 times a wk.. omg!) and maybe ill resume my work. ahahah or quit n work at my frens place (: so many lobangs but none seem suitable. ahha. wat to do wat to do.. at least jacinth you're tuitioning.. for me i cld.. but im too scared i ruin someone's life. ahha! pengs. well. i guess i cld teach eng and maths.. if anyone want these two subjs. lol. how dumb. yayyy!! movie tmr w haomei.. B3 dinner with my darlingssss den sat tanning with cinth and chowwww!! wat a wonderful wkend ahead!! (: hope arts pre camp is fun man... ahhaha if not cinth and i will curse ourselves thruout! ahhaa =) we gta learn how to be social butterflies those two days eh? no choice. lol. i really dntknw why jasmine tinks im so suited to be an arts camp councillor. ahha its damn funny laaaaaaa! dntknw wat kinda funny impression she has of me since she stayed in rarahs room. ahhaa.. the only ting i knw is tt she cannot stop laughing at me ever since she moved in.. i tk tht as a bad sign cz i really dont tink im tt comical. ahahaa!! jasmine_mouse u funny girl! miss u and our webcast sessions! lol. anw i haf no idea why but i feel tt life has taken a turn for the better.. its just this optimistic air tt im feeling now even tho nth tt fantastic has taken place.. ahha i better enjoy this happy moment while it lasts! ahah cz theres much ahead! :) i miss all my badminton trainings!! ahha.. i knw those badm buddies of mine wld be like.. WHATTTTTTTT!! JESS THE SLACKER ACTUALLY MISSES TRAININGS WHICH SHE USED TO COMPLAIN ABT! ahha but yesss i do!! it was more of the company larh.. i mean i love playing badm for fun.. esp doubles.. but yes i esp love e companyyy!! in st nicks. i absolutely loved playing doubles with the usual pple.. ping yy virn kang del mian =) in cj it was gen kat suzie =) miss those crazy ppleeee!! ahha.. oh my. its like.. for warm up we'll chase each other ard the 'warm up circle' ahhaa and instead of keeping the badm poles we'll pole dance.. ahha and talk in funny accents and do the most outrageous poses for our services.. it was absolutely funnnnnn!! those were the pple tt kept me gg on despite the really really really really touch trainings which totallyyyyyyy killed us n ripped our muscles apart!! well once a sports lover alws a sports loverrrr! ahha the only sport i like to watch but dont love to play is soccer. ahhaha. cant move the ball ard for nuts laaaaa!! (no pun intended) ahahha! anw one last final comment.. jacinth is the lamest girl i have ever met! ahha our fishball for eyeballs.. black cat.. conv tdy .. haha ill nv forget!! :) love ya despite ya lameness tho! ahaha. thks for accompanying me for pre-arts camp!! i really appreciate it (: dont worry. im sure sth gd will come outta our being there.. hahaa.